When it all comes down to it.....I can do it!

I’ve resisted starting again. Its tiring isn’t it? I mean, you get all ramped up. You fill your fridge with good stuff, tell the world and ..GO!! Something happens, you lose heart, you get tired of trying, you stop, and hey presto…FATTER! Who knew?

So how does one motivate oneself to believe? Well its easy. Where there is life, there is possibility. I have achieved so much in my life and I realised I did it by sheer force of will.

I felt I was getting nowhere once in my career, so I took a punt and shot for jobs beyond me. At one point I got a job because I said I wanted to study. I then had to do a study, and through fear of being found out, and complete focus, I completed a Post Grad Diploma in HR. I had no idea I could do it.

I then got another job beyond me, and finally made the big move. I told my family I was moving and by the way we were all going. I had lived in my house 11 years and only ever been to Australia on holiday, and beyond that…once to LA to get married in Vegas. But this time through sheer force of will I was moving to Perth.

So over I came. Got another job beyond me, put a plan together for the family and led the charge. I had no home, no money, no car, no comforts, no husband…nothing. But I did it. Eventually they got the house , dogs and furniture organised, found tenants for the house and joined me.

So now we are all here, dogs, spare son and no furniture as yet. Im at peace. Its time to put my energy, resources, sheer will and power to myself. I have proven in my life that anything I choose to do will be done. I choose to be healthy, and to support others in their quest. So what if Im starting again…Im starting!!

We are so powerful and we dont even acknowledge it!

Pre Season - How does fat and tired feel?

Im tired!
REALLY tired!!

I can barely hold a conversation, never mind find the energy to write this post.  But if Im going to make changes, I need to really articulate how fat and tired feels.

My throat is so painful.  My allergy cough is back.  My heart is palpitating.  My legs are painful and stiff and my shoulders and neck are so stiff I worry I will end up with a permanent hunchback.

Im 5'2 and I cant carry my weight.  Im all boob and belly and I did this.  I let other things take me over.  I put my body last, my health last.  Its ridiculous.

I dont beat myself up.  I cant.  What is done is done.  I can however instigate the changes for a healthier me.  I know Im allergic to Gluten, and I know its hidden....so cook your own damn food!  I know that white rice makes me tired and sick.....so dont bloody eat rice!!

Im ready to get real.  Really ready!!!

Michelle Bridges 12wbt - Here we come!!

After a  long time not blogging its time to ressurect the story.  I was going to do a whole new blog, but what the hell....its a story, not a nice piece of a pie!

I've left home!!!  I have to laugh.  Last year I was all moving to Brisbane!  That never happened.....

We now live in Perth.  As I write this there is a freakin great hurricane going on.  But just 24 hours ago I was sitting in the sun sipping bubbles.  I think I will like Perth.

So 2011 finds me happy, healthy, but again....with the fat!  I let it go because of injuries, study and general laziness.  But I won't be undone.  In a year I turn 50.   The older you get the harder it is to do style when it comes to exercise.  Only because rigormortis sets in and only because I let all that good work go!  I keep re starting because the day I give up being my best me is the day they cart me out of here in a box!

So new adventures!!  I signed up for Michelle Bridges 12 week body transformation.  Im going to see it through because I surrounded myself with the most amazing bunch of women I ever met who, as their motto, have JFDI on their t shirts.  I bought a t shirt!  Perth Crew!

Im setting my goals again.  Im putting my sights on what I want.  Im choosing health, easy moving, no excuses.  Im looking to be where I was!  Follow this blog..its a masterpiece in the making cos Im back baby!